I’m sitting here at my desk with my headphones in, and the whole world is muted. I can hear sounds, but they are all muffled. I feel like this is the way a lot of people live their lives. Muted. Not really hearing, seeing, feeling, and living the way they were meant to. I feel like this is how I’m living my life.
What do I do? How do I break out of this muted life?
I feel like the answer is that I have to fight. I have to fight for what I want, for what I crave, for what I feel like I am meant to be doing.
I also feel like I’m on the brink of something. I feel like I’m chipping away at a wall of concrete and I’m about to break through to the other side. And once a hole appears in the wall, a little light will shine through, and I’ll be able to peek through to the other side. And when I get a glimpse of what is to come, it will give me the will and the power to take down what is left of the wall. In the future, when I look back at the crumbling remains of the wall that didn’t just fall down, but was made to fall down, I will remember how much I had to fight for what I have.
Now I just need to find a pick axe. Or a jackhammer. Or some dynamite.
(Listening to: What Do I Do? - Sam Phillips - Album: The Indescribable Wow)
